Touch Of Agony!

An old Arabic writing mixed with love and agony. Hope you will enjoy (not the agony but just saying) 😎😎 The original Arabic version: قربك عذابي بعد ليالٍ من الشوق المرير حيث أرى وجهك في كل مكان بعد ساعاتٍ من الصلاة كي أراك وأكون قريبة منك ها أنتَ بجانبي ! ولكنني لا أجرأ على النظر إليك ! ليس هذا من […]

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Casual Conversation

Originally posted on Huguette Antoun:
Friend: look at me; is there something wrong with me? Why …doesn’t care? Doesn’t love me! Am I that bad?Me: what’s wrong with God?Friend: what’s wrong with God? God is perfect! What are you saying! Me: Still, there are millions and maybe more that attack God, not only do not love him, you seem surprised!Friend:…

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Can You Force Love?

It’s weird and hypocritical that people completely understand when you tell them you don’t like this kind of food, this color, this style, this taste…How you can’t stand certain scents as most people are for sure! You might be allergic and have intolerance as well to some food, drinks, scents…Water! Oh yes WATER “Aquagenic urticaria” can you imagine the disaster? […]

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My Friend صديقي

I will start publishing some of my Arabic writings along with English translation since I believe no one among my followers understands Arabic. This one is old, hope you will enjoy it! Original Arabic Version اتجه نحوي كعادته باسماً ملؤه الحماس عيناه تضج فرحاً وحياة” انتفض قلبي لرؤيته وفرحت عيوني لملقاه… إنّه حبيبي…..وأنا؟ “صديقته …اقترب مني قلقاً  مضطرباً راجياً مساعدتي […]

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Mutual Connection

Published previously on September 3rd 2018 Yes the world population is 7.6 billion but good luck in finding a mutual connection and chemistry with just one person! Some people live and die without knowing this feeling.you will meet hundreds and thousands of people, yes! But you are lucky if you could find your home in someone’s eyesYou are lucky if […]

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Touch Of Love

Some musings I wrote occasionally on love and feelings… Happy Valentine’s Day! Hearts are made to be broken…we don’t protect them by building walls; they just become as rigid as walls! It’s either you don’t cross my mind at all or I think about you non-stop for 1 year or so…When it comes to feelings, I’m extremist what can I […]

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My Mother’s Angels

Yesterday when I saw my mother crying and sobbing because the chicks, the hens and roosters she was raising and taking care of for more than a year, are all dying day after day, they were hit by the flu and they start to die and nothing to be done even though she was taking care of them daily, continuously […]

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The Power Of Love

“See how easy it is to be heartless and cruel? It is so easy!! But it requires a great strength to have a loving heart! Fuck off” (Part of a story I wrote) Love is not for weak people, those who are always afraid to be rejected, to be dumped, to be left alone, to be cheated on, Love is for those who went through all the above and they are still able to love and not afraid to try again because they know very well it’s not about them, it’s not personal even though it’s hard not to take it so personally! They consider that whoever hurts them it’s their problem and their issues! They just move on and continue living and loving…. Feelings change and people change, it’s not a problem, just never stop loving and trying; Even if they mock you, reject you, laugh on your feelings…it’s always about them, it’s always their issues and their problem, because they are unable to love, because they simply don’t like you, they’re not interested..etc…I mean what about the people that are chasing you and you’re not interested? you keep bragging that this girl or this guy is crazy about me but you don’t care… So when people reject you, you don’t close your heart and become rude and heartless, you just move on and keep loving and caring…Love is the only power that can change the world for the […]

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We Don’t Get To Choose

I hurt so many people unintentionally or maybe because I was hurt. As many people hurt me unintentionally or because they are hurt. This is can’t be stopped or prevented. We love whom we love, we like whom we like and we don’t get to choose the chemistry, the connection, the telepathy and the attraction. The world would be pain-free if we get to choose! At some point, we will all be treated the same way we treated another person, so we know the feeling very well but we can’t do anything about it. Fair enough, I guess. Written in October 2017  

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Kindness….

Whatever you do in life, whether you learn something new every year, you have BA, master, many certificates and high level educations, buy new stuff, buy branded clothes, hi-tech electronics and stuff, whether you are super smart and beautiful…You will find that someone else just did it, or someone is better than you or like you….someone has invented things you thought about, opened businesses you wanted to have, you feel that there is a lot of everything, too much competition, too much information, too much things…you feel that your ideas or feelings are outdated, you are so left behind, many have been there, did what you wanted to do….there is too much of everything….except kindness, it is so so few… being kind and nice will always be creative! And it’s never outdated. Just be kind and expect nothing in return… When I go back and remember all the people that were in my life, that never forget about me despite the distance and time….I find only one reason: I was nice! They didn’t care if I was smart, and I wasn’t rich nor famous…I had nothing to give…but I was kind! Something I lost maybe years later, I’ve become more rigid and intimidating…because I couldn’t handle the heavy burden of being alone in a world full of hatred, hypocrisy and fake people…I was standing alone and I felt a huge responsibility, a lot of pressure! I wasn’t that strong so […]

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Casual Conversation

Friend: look at me; is there something wrong with me? Why …doesn’t care? Doesn’t love me! Am I that bad?Me: what’s wrong with God?Friend: what’s wrong with God? God is perfect! What are you saying! Me: Still, there are millions and maybe more that attack God, not only do not love him, you seem surprised!Friend: yes yes I know…just confused! Me: we call them atheists and they are freeFriend: yes right but what do you mean! Why you’re mentioning God and atheists?Me: I mean you can be more than perfect but you can’t force love and admiration! It’s irrelevant! Friend: Even if I made lot of efforts and didn’t give up at all!?Me: well it’s like taking someone to the best steak house in town but they are Vegetarians! Or Vegans…Eternal SilenceMe: what about those who are chasing you and you’re ignoring them? Why you don’t give them a chance? What’s wrong with them?Friend: I’m not interested! They mean nothing to me!Me: Really? You got your answer thenFriend: damn you’re so rude!Me: Yes, truth is rude dear but I love itFriend: I don’t! But I do appreciate your honesty so much! Now I have many things to re-consider even if I will not admit Me: it’s enough to admit to yourself….fair enough… Written in November 2018

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2018 Resolutions and Lessons!

2018 is over; It was mostly and generally a dull year full of disappointments, sad events, loss of great people and economic crisis that led many to lose their jobs and a certain level of living. Despite, we always learn and improve: Personally, I was convinced that exercise and workout should be a habit, a life style and so it was. I lost 34 pounds and maintaining my weight perfectly. I learned to enjoy my own company and to embrace quality time with myself. I was convinced that some people have a short role in your life, some have only one scene, some just pass by in the background of your life events…when you know that, you just let go and it’s not nonchalance or rudeness, it’s just accepting the facts and moving on. I was convinced that marriage is the worst institution ever and society is so fucked up struggling to maintain a fake image and many innocent creatures are paying a huge price. I was sad to realize that the woman in my country is not respected as they are claiming especially as a mother and partner; even her children won’t stand for her when she needs them, those children that she gave them her all and her life… I witnessed how Lebanese society is retarded, judgmental and racist apart from a small percentage of very well educated and respectful people that are lost among these garbage and […]

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